Sunday & Weary

I felt like I limped into church today

I probably could have collapsed into the pew

Our kids were being combative before we left for church

Hubby and I were restless from the night before exhausted beyond measure

The worship music seemed like a distant memory

How could I possibly sing about God’s goodness when I stood there feeling like I didn’t belong in His presence?

I just yelled at my kids that morning

I chose harsh words over soft ones

I didn’t prepare my heart for the Word

I’m showing up with less than a beloved hallelujah in my heart

Yet, the sermon series talks about Ephesians

And we find out Paul wasn’t qualified and neither are we

God beckons to our weary hearts saying “it’s okay, come and rest”

So, tears sneak out my eyes

And, I take some deep breaths

And push out the church doors ready to renew my steps with God

Today still has grace and mercy left to offer - both for myself and others